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tilmon at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
I'm don't even have an American provider and this plan was rejected in Europe... But this is important, right?
tilmon at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012Originally posted by cestlavieminako at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
cestlavieminako at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012Originally posted by fma245 at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
fma245 at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012Originally posted by criyu at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
criyu at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012Originally posted by renge64 at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
renge64 at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012Originally posted by adrian_and_sela and torchic44
ETA: Petition for RIAA and the Obama Administration: Stop ISPs from launching a massive copyright spying scheme this July 12th
adrian_and_sela and torchic44All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012
Seriously. WHAT THE FLYING FUCK WORLD.
"File-sharers, beware: By July 12, major US Internet service providers (ISPs) will voluntarily begin serving as copyright police for the entertainment industry, according to Cary Sherman, chief executive of the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA). The so-called “six-strikes” plan is said to be one of the most effective anti-piracy efforts ever established in the US."
The article goes on to give details. After six notices, internet providers will decide to throttle a person's internet speed, or cut it off altogether. I don't know if they will crack down on torrents only, or if it is up to the internet provider. I get the sense it is up to the internet provider. So some people could get away with downloading non torrents, while others might get their internet service cut off. I urge you to click it and read, as we all know people who download.
No more downloading eps of your favorite shows for vidding, gifs, or fanfiction art. No more downloading screencaps possibly. I'm so sorry my friends. I don't even know if BT Guard will work to protect you, but I would google it if I were you. It is a professional service that supposedly can protect you from the invasive eyes of your internet provider.
Just, my friends, please make each other aware. Please be aware of the date JULY 12TH. Mark your calendar and double check with your internet provider by then. If you start receiving notices of downloaded activity, this is why. And your internet service could be throttled or cut off.
Fox News confirms this:
http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2012/03/17/us-isps-become-copyright-cops-starting-july-12/
Youtube video explaining this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5OG0R-yS-c
"File-sharers, beware: By July 12, major US Internet service providers (ISPs) will voluntarily begin serving as copyright police for the entertainment industry, according to Cary Sherman, chief executive of the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA). The so-called “six-strikes” plan is said to be one of the most effective anti-piracy efforts ever established in the US."
The article goes on to give details. After six notices, internet providers will decide to throttle a person's internet speed, or cut it off altogether. I don't know if they will crack down on torrents only, or if it is up to the internet provider. I get the sense it is up to the internet provider. So some people could get away with downloading non torrents, while others might get their internet service cut off. I urge you to click it and read, as we all know people who download.
No more downloading eps of your favorite shows for vidding, gifs, or fanfiction art. No more downloading screencaps possibly. I'm so sorry my friends. I don't even know if BT Guard will work to protect you, but I would google it if I were you. It is a professional service that supposedly can protect you from the invasive eyes of your internet provider.
Just, my friends, please make each other aware. Please be aware of the date JULY 12TH. Mark your calendar and double check with your internet provider by then. If you start receiving notices of downloaded activity, this is why. And your internet service could be throttled or cut off.
Fox News confirms this:
http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2012/03/17/us-isps-become-copyright-cops-starting-july-12/
Youtube video explaining this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5OG0R-yS-c
ETA: Petition for RIAA and the Obama Administration: Stop ISPs from launching a massive copyright spying scheme this July 12th
I'm don't even have an American provider and this plan was rejected in Europe... But this is important, right?
....the last thing i needed...
Apr. 20th, 2012 11:54 pmour internal HDD broke down. Still don't know what will be lost, and how to recover it.
No. Not you too. NOT THE FUCK YOU TOO!!!
No. Not you too. NOT THE FUCK YOU TOO!!!
let it die, let it die....
Apr. 19th, 2012 10:11 pmI'm sure no one out there will understand this because I've never met someone who gives so much fuck about the damn messages stored on that device called cell phone.
As those of you who actually care to read my lj after this long of a time I've spent disappeared, I sent my cellphone for service a month ago for the first time, to have the flex card (or whatever that was) replaced. I took it back and it acted up again on the same day, so I take it back and they tell me that Sony Ericsson sold them a bunch of no-good spare parts. What the fuck do I care; I paid you 38 damn euros and I want my cellphone as I gave it to you. Ok, then, they took it to fix it again (ofc without charging -I'd go berserk if that happened!) and I got it back today... formatted. WITHOUT. MY. CONSENT. They STATE, at the shop's papers and on the "item received for service" form , that the companies that the phones are sent back for service might format the phones, IN THE SMALL LETTERS. They're bound by whatever rules is in the industry to READ THOSE OUT to the people who give their phones to them. THEY DIDN'T READ THEM TO ME. The first person who took my phone ought to have done it, the person in charge told me, and that there wasn't something they could do at this stage. That they're bound to warn a client beforehand, but they didn't, leaving it at me and supposing I had read the small letters and understood and had consented... THEY ALWAYS ASK IF WE WANT TO BACK UP THE DAMN DATA, WHY NOT NOW?
In the end, my phone returned from SE with the camera function not working, scratches on the camera lense, formatted and with software updated, no more with the vodafone software it had installed when I bought it on a vodafone contract. I had backuped my phone contacts on my SIM card, and all the music, pictures and videos on the computer, BUT HOW THE HELL COULD I HAVE BACKUPED THE 1000+ MESSAGES SINCE NEARLY 5 YEARS AGO? Because when I had to change devices back in summer 2010 (here, my phone hasn't even exceeded the insurance period!!) I had all my messages from my old K530 transferred to the new device. I didn't mind that it wouldn't have much free space on the phone memory. I wanted those damn memories.
Fyi, the text messages have been my life. I don't choose all those phones you all love, iphones, blackberries or apple phones or xperias or smartphones -I hate touch-screen things because they're gross, and plus, I don't really need internet-on-the-go. I hate facebook, I don't really use youtube or tumblr, only twitter, and regardless of using it all the time, I don't think I need it on my phone. I love technology, but those phones are ridiculous, ridiculously expensive and break down too easily. I had just a simple SE C510. I just loved that it could take pictures with its 2.sth megapixel camera that were clearer than the digicamera we own with the 8mpx couldn't battle, that it was so strong and had gotten through 2 dives into water, that its battery was incredibly good and up to this date it can last about 10 days without being recharged if left alone, that it read the japanese characters on my music and videos, that it was so useful and played its music clearer than the SE Walkman phones. I loved my phone for what it was; I planned to not have it changed if we had to get a new one and it still worked, just use it firstly and have the new one as a spare. It's the first time I was so ...tied with a device. It wasn't anything really useful, it didn't have much free space for music and stuff, but on the memory card it had 1GB of pictures mostly of Eito and Kura and less than 800MBs of music and video, it's the phone I talked to my friends in Japan and all over the world with, it's the phone some of you have even seen when I went over to see you, it's the phone that sparkled in the sun like the twilight vampires, offering so many chances of laughter whenever that subject came on....
Now all that is lost and it's a stranger. It's not my phone anymore.
I know it's completely stupid, but I loved the phone for what it was. I've been crying all day like a friend I really loved left me. It was a friend. To me, it was a friend. The only one who was with me when no one else was, got warm in my pocket and gave that warmth back to me when my fingers were frozen in the winter, and it was the friend that connected me with all of you.
I never wanted it to die like this. It's almost like being diagnosed with a serious disease you'd have to lose everything important for you for it to be treated, and you didn't want to let the doctors do their job, so they diagnosed you unable to judge your own good, and they change it for you without your consent. Only in my case, I wasn't even told beforehand.
Yes, I'm on pms too. I don't think that changes anything.
As those of you who actually care to read my lj after this long of a time I've spent disappeared, I sent my cellphone for service a month ago for the first time, to have the flex card (or whatever that was) replaced. I took it back and it acted up again on the same day, so I take it back and they tell me that Sony Ericsson sold them a bunch of no-good spare parts. What the fuck do I care; I paid you 38 damn euros and I want my cellphone as I gave it to you. Ok, then, they took it to fix it again (ofc without charging -I'd go berserk if that happened!) and I got it back today... formatted. WITHOUT. MY. CONSENT. They STATE, at the shop's papers and on the "item received for service" form , that the companies that the phones are sent back for service might format the phones, IN THE SMALL LETTERS. They're bound by whatever rules is in the industry to READ THOSE OUT to the people who give their phones to them. THEY DIDN'T READ THEM TO ME. The first person who took my phone ought to have done it, the person in charge told me, and that there wasn't something they could do at this stage. That they're bound to warn a client beforehand, but they didn't, leaving it at me and supposing I had read the small letters and understood and had consented... THEY ALWAYS ASK IF WE WANT TO BACK UP THE DAMN DATA, WHY NOT NOW?
In the end, my phone returned from SE with the camera function not working, scratches on the camera lense, formatted and with software updated, no more with the vodafone software it had installed when I bought it on a vodafone contract. I had backuped my phone contacts on my SIM card, and all the music, pictures and videos on the computer, BUT HOW THE HELL COULD I HAVE BACKUPED THE 1000+ MESSAGES SINCE NEARLY 5 YEARS AGO? Because when I had to change devices back in summer 2010 (here, my phone hasn't even exceeded the insurance period!!) I had all my messages from my old K530 transferred to the new device. I didn't mind that it wouldn't have much free space on the phone memory. I wanted those damn memories.
Fyi, the text messages have been my life. I don't choose all those phones you all love, iphones, blackberries or apple phones or xperias or smartphones -I hate touch-screen things because they're gross, and plus, I don't really need internet-on-the-go. I hate facebook, I don't really use youtube or tumblr, only twitter, and regardless of using it all the time, I don't think I need it on my phone. I love technology, but those phones are ridiculous, ridiculously expensive and break down too easily. I had just a simple SE C510. I just loved that it could take pictures with its 2.sth megapixel camera that were clearer than the digicamera we own with the 8mpx couldn't battle, that it was so strong and had gotten through 2 dives into water, that its battery was incredibly good and up to this date it can last about 10 days without being recharged if left alone, that it read the japanese characters on my music and videos, that it was so useful and played its music clearer than the SE Walkman phones. I loved my phone for what it was; I planned to not have it changed if we had to get a new one and it still worked, just use it firstly and have the new one as a spare. It's the first time I was so ...tied with a device. It wasn't anything really useful, it didn't have much free space for music and stuff, but on the memory card it had 1GB of pictures mostly of Eito and Kura and less than 800MBs of music and video, it's the phone I talked to my friends in Japan and all over the world with, it's the phone some of you have even seen when I went over to see you, it's the phone that sparkled in the sun like the twilight vampires, offering so many chances of laughter whenever that subject came on....
Now all that is lost and it's a stranger. It's not my phone anymore.
I know it's completely stupid, but I loved the phone for what it was. I've been crying all day like a friend I really loved left me. It was a friend. To me, it was a friend. The only one who was with me when no one else was, got warm in my pocket and gave that warmth back to me when my fingers were frozen in the winter, and it was the friend that connected me with all of you.
I never wanted it to die like this. It's almost like being diagnosed with a serious disease you'd have to lose everything important for you for it to be treated, and you didn't want to let the doctors do their job, so they diagnosed you unable to judge your own good, and they change it for you without your consent. Only in my case, I wasn't even told beforehand.
Yes, I'm on pms too. I don't think that changes anything.
Late-night moments
Apr. 10th, 2012 04:09 amstaying awake till 4am googling pictures of alan rickman.
Think I saw Robin Hood somewhere on TV this week. The past week. Whatevs. We were assigned to read Sense and Sensibility(again, btw. Seriously, doesn't this year's teacher ask the previous one for what she assigned us to do previously? Not that I mind, when Austen works are included, but just saying~) for spring break, for English class in Uni, and inevitably my mind ran off to the awesome movie <3333 Of course speaking of the 1995 one. Gonna go asking at the video club and see if they have it. I've only ever watched it in crappy quality on grandma's TV by chance. As I'm reading the book now because of Uni, I might as well use it as a chance to compare it with the movie... Not that I have any complaints, esp as the cast was more than damn classy choices for the roles xD
Need new LJ icons. Since, you know, paid account expired without me understanding and with the crisis we're in I can't be paying even for the smallest amount a paid account requires. Blah xD
I'd better go to bed :p
Think I saw Robin Hood somewhere on TV this week. The past week. Whatevs. We were assigned to read Sense and Sensibility
Need new LJ icons. Since, you know, paid account expired without me understanding and with the crisis we're in I can't be paying even for the smallest amount a paid account requires. Blah xD
I'd better go to bed :p
this deserves its own entry
Apr. 8th, 2012 01:10 amwhile I'm typing an other one, but
OH
MY
GOD.
I'm damn hooked on when it comes to things like this but LOOK
http://shop.lego.com/en-US/Pick-A-Brick-ByTheme
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS.
This part of the site is amazing. Damn amazing *flails all over the place on her own*
Even dad is excited about it!!!
OH
MY
GOD.
I'm damn hooked on when it comes to things like this but LOOK
http://shop.lego.com/en-US/Pick-A-Brick-ByTheme
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS.
This part of the site is amazing. Damn amazing *flails all over the place on her own*
Even dad is excited about it!!!
Reasons of going away
Mar. 26th, 2012 02:27 amSo, guys and gals.
Going on net hiatus. For... idk how long. I WON'T be going online on the sites we all gather or lurk or whatevs, but I will be checking my email notifications for journal updates etc. I WILL be reading your journals, even if I don't reply. I WILL stay on lj and probably fully return from my lj hiatus. But LJ is the only place I still will be properly visiting. I probably won't appear at all that often on twitter, so for those who have me added, don't bother much. Also, if you want anything, email me or PM me here -the only fandom-related place I'll visit is lj and ofc, as I said, my emails, since I have the notifications.
The reasons are many, so I won't state them all. First though, I've got to mention the main and most important one.
Uni. studying. And I mean it.
Remember how many times I've whined about how my department in Uni sucks like, big time, and how I had no lessons, or exams, or couldn't attend classes because of no professors, riotings, takeovers etc?
Well suddenly it's all over. ALSO, supposedly, the gaps that previous personell that was fired/somehow gone had left were filled (still getting there, actually...) but the point is that finally 1) I have lessons 2) I have professors to teach me 3) I can go to Uni like other people again. The major problem is that suddenly, to make up for the lessons that were gone when the system changed, suddenly I have 15 lessons new to move on from the chaos of little-to-no lessons those in my year are in atm. 15 LESSONS. Only for the ONE semester of the three that were lost. Clearly, atm I couldn't suddenly take on all of them so I just took about 7. Including English, I think.
The MAJOR problem with this situation though, is that all this year of sitting back and doing nothing because of, idek what was going on in there, I have grown even further apart with French. I try to cover up and make up for it with songs and movies but clearly it's not enough when I don't remember basic grammar OR sentence structure. PLUS, my inferiority complex because I can't speak it. And also, I have no books since we had no lessons; plus I have no dictionaries. There's a certain type of dictionary that everyone who's studied french in this Uni has from before getting in, and I don't. That's BASICS. And it's 2 books, each of them costing about 60 euros. I now have only one that my mom used to have when she was in school, and one that a friend lent me, and it's a pocket one. I need dictionaries, not only to study further on my own, but because I wanna get into the translating department, and THEY have OTHER types of dictionaries too... *sigh*
Anyway. Uni and wanting to study with no distractions is the main reason I wanna go off the internet, but of course, my offline-ness is tied to another major reason.
Fandom.
In which I'm kind of disappointed, but this entry is not to state the reasons why.
For this period of time, for this certain amount of time until the tour DVD arrives, I'm trying to avoid spoilers. I've already been spammed with gifs and screencaps of it, (I saw Kura's blue underwear somewhere... xDDDDD) so I'm REALLY trying against my natural curiosity this time. It was really hurtful not going to this concert because I was supposed to be in Japan until Septembet 2012.... Anyway. I won't talk about this subject -it's touchy, and I'll probably get emo.
Also, another reason related to fandom is because it's Eito's 8th year, AGAIN becuse I was supposed to be in Japan for the most part and I'm not, but this time it's worse because I live in Greece. Which means, for those of you who know only what the random piece of news show out to the world, no jobs for anyone, more for young people (so inevitably none for me), dad earning less and less because of the money being kept off the salaries of people, to /pay for taxes/ we are forced to pay for the debt OTHERS created... My allowance is 50 euros every month. You realize I can't exactly cover daily needs/buy clothes if I want or anything AND try to save up for any future release with just 50 euros every month... I haven't gone shopping to get many clothes like all the girls my age do; spending those 50 euros even just for a pair of shoes like it's nothing... It's ridiculous to me, I don't understand the need to buy something like that when you could be more practical, but it's entirely my choice to spend all my allowance on CDs coming from Japan. If Eito hold any events, go on tours or release anything special for the 8th anniversary, I prefer staying with the same clothes I bought 2 and 3 years ago to spend it on buying those things. The way things are, I'm not able to go and see them, try to attend events or concerts or the movie screening or anything, in the end, and since the only thing I can do is buy the DVDs released afterwards... I'm going to try and do that. Some of you... that I don't ever know how to thank or return the favor have already helped me enough times get CDs and DVDs... And I'm really, really thankful for that. You don't know how much grateful I feel. But also indebted, and a horrible friend for only receiving. That's why I don't want this to go on.
What Eito mean to me can't be explained in words. What fandom makes me feel either. Seeing things I know I 1)have no time to watch 2) can't watch until they get uploaded 3) don't even know if I can get my hands of (if they're releases) makes me so frustrated. Maybe I've mentioned this before, but my reaction to all my strong feelings is crying. I've cried so many times because of fandom, of things I just couldn't touch even virtually (meaning download or even just viewing scans), and I know that this is gonna happen again if I am online. I cried so much when my father decided to not let me go to Japan, I cried every day of the tour last year and I cried even more on the day of the countdown. I cried only at the mentions of people going there, I cried with the reports, I cried when I received the FIGHT album and read the lyrics of Uchuu ni Itta Lion and Wander because they hit a spot inside my heart -and I am still crying in frustration and despair because I've finally digested the fact that
in the situation Greece is, I WON'T be able to go to Japan even for a visit for the next 4 years in the least.
I have no money of my own and there are no jobs I can do while studying so much for a Uni department I didn't want to go to because I was lacking and got into by chance and for my family to get a bit more extra help money the government give out to families with many children whose eldest ones are in Universities. I want to buy presents to my 5-year old brother and I can't. I want to buy and send presents to my friends and I can't. I have to think of what I'll have to miss out on if I go out for a drink or a cup of coffee or a meal with a friend. I have to think of where and on what to spend even ONE damn euro. A 20-year old shouldn't have to think like that. Uni student years are supposed to be the level-headed, happy, not-a-care-in-the-world ones. I've grown up hearing everyone around me saying "when you go in Uni, have as much fun as you want because that's what a Uni student's life is for" (obviously aside of studying), and now look at this.
My only hours of fun is Eito -or when I watch dramas, be those J or K ones. Another reason why I can't slip into other fandoms is that, with my character, when I want to follow an artist, I want to support them and I want to buy things too. Obviously, with my huge love for Japanese artists and a couple of Korean musicians, I couldn't ever FINANCIALLY support all those people... So I try to at least support my longest-loved band, which is K8. It all comes down to money, that I've despised and feared and hated with all my heart all my life, but this is it. Either I digest it and accept the fact that it's ruined my life before I was even able to DO something with it, or I don't and keep being uneasy and hurt.
The hurt won't stop either way, but if I set lines it feels like I'm maybe doing something.
It is my decision to wear worn-out clothes and shoes and buy no cosmetics or bags or jewelry or ANYTHING, really, to buy only Eito's stuff, I'm not blaming anyone, and I WILL NOT stop doing it until the day we really have no more left to eat. The few years since I started UNDERSTANDING what Eito are HAVE changed me drastically, the songs affect me greatly, but the music and the lyrics fill my heart with pain and my eyes with tears. Songs like Tabibito and Dreaming Blood and Ai no Chikara and Goujou ni GO and Mugendai and Taiyou no Kodomo and BJ and PUZZLE and GoriGori and 413man and LIFE and Aoshashin and BOY and Monogram and tte and Uchuu ni Itta Lion and Wander and Kagayakeru Butai e -just think of the lyrics, if there's translations of everything, and idk... They're HAPPY songs. Songs of encouragement. Songs about friendships, dreams, developing or freeing yourself, trips all over the world until you find yourself or a meaning... They're damn. happy. songs. I've said it before. They SHOULDN'T make me cry, but they do, and if anyone has understood anything about me in the long or short time we've been friends, hopefully you understand why they do.
Because following Eito online like everyone HURTS, because of rl being more than painfully hard, because of Uni getting in the way, I will withdraw. I DON'T know how long this is going to go on, I really don't, but I know that all these years I've been in the fandom my reactions to things have been the same with now, and so I know they won't change in the future. I'll still love them more than anything, they'll still own my mind and soul, my heart will still writhe in pain for not being able to fully support them and watch them live when it looks like it's finally their time to shine -the only thing that will ever change is my love for them. It will only grow bigger.
Someone asked me if I have any phobias, because with everything that's been going on lately, internet-wise and not, I still look like I give no fuck. Well, I have two. Losing my loved ones, and Eito, for whatever reason, disbanding/disappearing/stop making my world a little better of a place to live in.
When I say that they mean the world to me, I really mean it.
And I managed to write all this without ruining my mood, so this must mean that I'm actually coping better than I thought.
I'll guess.. see you all around? =)
Going on net hiatus. For... idk how long. I WON'T be going online on the sites we all gather or lurk or whatevs, but I will be checking my email notifications for journal updates etc. I WILL be reading your journals, even if I don't reply. I WILL stay on lj and probably fully return from my lj hiatus. But LJ is the only place I still will be properly visiting. I probably won't appear at all that often on twitter, so for those who have me added, don't bother much. Also, if you want anything, email me or PM me here -the only fandom-related place I'll visit is lj and ofc, as I said, my emails, since I have the notifications.
The reasons are many, so I won't state them all. First though, I've got to mention the main and most important one.
Uni. studying. And I mean it.
Remember how many times I've whined about how my department in Uni sucks like, big time, and how I had no lessons, or exams, or couldn't attend classes because of no professors, riotings, takeovers etc?
Well suddenly it's all over. ALSO, supposedly, the gaps that previous personell that was fired/somehow gone had left were filled (still getting there, actually...) but the point is that finally 1) I have lessons 2) I have professors to teach me 3) I can go to Uni like other people again. The major problem is that suddenly, to make up for the lessons that were gone when the system changed, suddenly I have 15 lessons new to move on from the chaos of little-to-no lessons those in my year are in atm. 15 LESSONS. Only for the ONE semester of the three that were lost. Clearly, atm I couldn't suddenly take on all of them so I just took about 7. Including English, I think.
The MAJOR problem with this situation though, is that all this year of sitting back and doing nothing because of, idek what was going on in there, I have grown even further apart with French. I try to cover up and make up for it with songs and movies but clearly it's not enough when I don't remember basic grammar OR sentence structure. PLUS, my inferiority complex because I can't speak it. And also, I have no books since we had no lessons; plus I have no dictionaries. There's a certain type of dictionary that everyone who's studied french in this Uni has from before getting in, and I don't. That's BASICS. And it's 2 books, each of them costing about 60 euros. I now have only one that my mom used to have when she was in school, and one that a friend lent me, and it's a pocket one. I need dictionaries, not only to study further on my own, but because I wanna get into the translating department, and THEY have OTHER types of dictionaries too... *sigh*
Anyway. Uni and wanting to study with no distractions is the main reason I wanna go off the internet, but of course, my offline-ness is tied to another major reason.
Fandom.
In which I'm kind of disappointed, but this entry is not to state the reasons why.
For this period of time, for this certain amount of time until the tour DVD arrives, I'm trying to avoid spoilers. I've already been spammed with gifs and screencaps of it, (I saw Kura's blue underwear somewhere... xDDDDD) so I'm REALLY trying against my natural curiosity this time. It was really hurtful not going to this concert because I was supposed to be in Japan until Septembet 2012.... Anyway. I won't talk about this subject -it's touchy, and I'll probably get emo.
Also, another reason related to fandom is because it's Eito's 8th year, AGAIN becuse I was supposed to be in Japan for the most part and I'm not, but this time it's worse because I live in Greece. Which means, for those of you who know only what the random piece of news show out to the world, no jobs for anyone, more for young people (so inevitably none for me), dad earning less and less because of the money being kept off the salaries of people, to /pay for taxes/ we are forced to pay for the debt OTHERS created... My allowance is 50 euros every month. You realize I can't exactly cover daily needs/buy clothes if I want or anything AND try to save up for any future release with just 50 euros every month... I haven't gone shopping to get many clothes like all the girls my age do; spending those 50 euros even just for a pair of shoes like it's nothing... It's ridiculous to me, I don't understand the need to buy something like that when you could be more practical, but it's entirely my choice to spend all my allowance on CDs coming from Japan. If Eito hold any events, go on tours or release anything special for the 8th anniversary, I prefer staying with the same clothes I bought 2 and 3 years ago to spend it on buying those things. The way things are, I'm not able to go and see them, try to attend events or concerts or the movie screening or anything, in the end, and since the only thing I can do is buy the DVDs released afterwards... I'm going to try and do that. Some of you... that I don't ever know how to thank or return the favor have already helped me enough times get CDs and DVDs... And I'm really, really thankful for that. You don't know how much grateful I feel. But also indebted, and a horrible friend for only receiving. That's why I don't want this to go on.
What Eito mean to me can't be explained in words. What fandom makes me feel either. Seeing things I know I 1)have no time to watch 2) can't watch until they get uploaded 3) don't even know if I can get my hands of (if they're releases) makes me so frustrated. Maybe I've mentioned this before, but my reaction to all my strong feelings is crying. I've cried so many times because of fandom, of things I just couldn't touch even virtually (meaning download or even just viewing scans), and I know that this is gonna happen again if I am online. I cried so much when my father decided to not let me go to Japan, I cried every day of the tour last year and I cried even more on the day of the countdown. I cried only at the mentions of people going there, I cried with the reports, I cried when I received the FIGHT album and read the lyrics of Uchuu ni Itta Lion and Wander because they hit a spot inside my heart -and I am still crying in frustration and despair because I've finally digested the fact that
in the situation Greece is, I WON'T be able to go to Japan even for a visit for the next 4 years in the least.
I have no money of my own and there are no jobs I can do while studying so much for a Uni department I didn't want to go to because I was lacking and got into by chance and for my family to get a bit more extra help money the government give out to families with many children whose eldest ones are in Universities. I want to buy presents to my 5-year old brother and I can't. I want to buy and send presents to my friends and I can't. I have to think of what I'll have to miss out on if I go out for a drink or a cup of coffee or a meal with a friend. I have to think of where and on what to spend even ONE damn euro. A 20-year old shouldn't have to think like that. Uni student years are supposed to be the level-headed, happy, not-a-care-in-the-world ones. I've grown up hearing everyone around me saying "when you go in Uni, have as much fun as you want because that's what a Uni student's life is for" (obviously aside of studying), and now look at this.
My only hours of fun is Eito -or when I watch dramas, be those J or K ones. Another reason why I can't slip into other fandoms is that, with my character, when I want to follow an artist, I want to support them and I want to buy things too. Obviously, with my huge love for Japanese artists and a couple of Korean musicians, I couldn't ever FINANCIALLY support all those people... So I try to at least support my longest-loved band, which is K8. It all comes down to money, that I've despised and feared and hated with all my heart all my life, but this is it. Either I digest it and accept the fact that it's ruined my life before I was even able to DO something with it, or I don't and keep being uneasy and hurt.
The hurt won't stop either way, but if I set lines it feels like I'm maybe doing something.
It is my decision to wear worn-out clothes and shoes and buy no cosmetics or bags or jewelry or ANYTHING, really, to buy only Eito's stuff, I'm not blaming anyone, and I WILL NOT stop doing it until the day we really have no more left to eat. The few years since I started UNDERSTANDING what Eito are HAVE changed me drastically, the songs affect me greatly, but the music and the lyrics fill my heart with pain and my eyes with tears. Songs like Tabibito and Dreaming Blood and Ai no Chikara and Goujou ni GO and Mugendai and Taiyou no Kodomo and BJ and PUZZLE and GoriGori and 413man and LIFE and Aoshashin and BOY and Monogram and tte and Uchuu ni Itta Lion and Wander and Kagayakeru Butai e -just think of the lyrics, if there's translations of everything, and idk... They're HAPPY songs. Songs of encouragement. Songs about friendships, dreams, developing or freeing yourself, trips all over the world until you find yourself or a meaning... They're damn. happy. songs. I've said it before. They SHOULDN'T make me cry, but they do, and if anyone has understood anything about me in the long or short time we've been friends, hopefully you understand why they do.
Because following Eito online like everyone HURTS, because of rl being more than painfully hard, because of Uni getting in the way, I will withdraw. I DON'T know how long this is going to go on, I really don't, but I know that all these years I've been in the fandom my reactions to things have been the same with now, and so I know they won't change in the future. I'll still love them more than anything, they'll still own my mind and soul, my heart will still writhe in pain for not being able to fully support them and watch them live when it looks like it's finally their time to shine -the only thing that will ever change is my love for them. It will only grow bigger.
Someone asked me if I have any phobias, because with everything that's been going on lately, internet-wise and not, I still look like I give no fuck. Well, I have two. Losing my loved ones, and Eito, for whatever reason, disbanding/disappearing/stop making my world a little better of a place to live in.
When I say that they mean the world to me, I really mean it.
And I managed to write all this without ruining my mood, so this must mean that I'm actually coping better than I thought.
I'll guess.. see you all around? =)
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
Mar. 4th, 2012 07:25 pmEITO RANGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERS
MOVIE
MOVIE
FUCKING MOVIE.
SECOND MOVIE IN 2 YEARS
ONE MORE AWESOME THAN THE OTHER
JUST BECAUSE. THEY. ARE.
THOSE TROLLS ARE BETTER THAN ANYONE AND JUST BECAUSE THEY KNOW IT AND THEY CAN THEY'RE GONNA MAKE SOMETHING THAT WAS A CONCERT ATTRACTION INTO A FUCKING MOVIE.
I cannot calm down. I cannot calm down. I cannot calm down.
MIRO YO ORE NO SUGATA
I love you guys. Just keep going like this.
i don't even know what i want to say anymore. It's just...
This is all too much!!
MOVIE
MOVIE
FUCKING MOVIE.
SECOND MOVIE IN 2 YEARS
ONE MORE AWESOME THAN THE OTHER
JUST BECAUSE. THEY. ARE.
THOSE TROLLS ARE BETTER THAN ANYONE AND JUST BECAUSE THEY KNOW IT AND THEY CAN THEY'RE GONNA MAKE SOMETHING THAT WAS A CONCERT ATTRACTION INTO A FUCKING MOVIE.
I cannot calm down. I cannot calm down. I cannot calm down.
MIRO YO ORE NO SUGATA
I love you guys. Just keep going like this.
i don't even know what i want to say anymore. It's just...
This is all too much!!
Kingyo Club engsubs [10 out of 10]
Aug. 20th, 2011 10:57 pmAs I decided to jump into the fansubbing world...
VERY FIRST time timing and doing all the work on my own, so ofc there's gonna be mistakes. Anyone willing to help retime/type more properly/ correct any mistakesas I don't claim to be perfectly fluent in japanese is more than welcome. Many thanks to bittersweet_bun for all the raws!
Episode one: MF
Episode two: MF
notes on this epi: I'm not 100% (okay, I'm about 90%) sure that what I read on that letter at the end is exactly correct. I went by the general meaning, mostly. There's a damn kanji that I searched for exactly 2 and a half hours for its meaning, I haven't found it anywhere, and decided to give up and go with the flow of the rest of the sentence. So yeah, if anyone can correct me, feel free to do so~ I swear I spent more time on the letter in the end than the whole episode ><
Episode three: MF
I missed my translation many times because of my PC freezing this week >< Somelines might be crooked because of the timing, but I checked and they were fine... As fine it can seem to me at 5am. I'll be doing epi 4 shortly too~
Episode four: MF
I missed the translation for this one once too... And then my sister has been sitting at the PC I use for this program too, so I didn't have it all for myself XD And, I'm doing another drama too ;) But the important thing is that you guys have the subs for epi 4 now too!
Episode five: MF
No comments on this XD You'll see for your own~ Working on six now...
Episode six: MF
Episode seven: MF
Episode eight: MF
Episode nine: MF
Episode ten (final): MF
Please tell me if you find anything that is not good with the subs (timing, meaning, any corrections at all).
UPDATE 05 03 2012
I'm sorry for causing trouble to everyone who wanted to finish the drama on time!
The past few months have had many ups and downs, and sometimes it wasn't even in my hand to post the subs, even though I had actually finished by November 2011 :( You can blame my computer, a HDD failure, my dad and his forgetfulness, and also MF, for not working xD I finally have them on my computer now so here, you have them as well.
I shouldn't be joking OTL It's the first drama I subbed all on my own and I wanted it to be done properly and quickly, but I failed OTL
Thanks so much tobittersweet_bun for uploading the raws the past summer!
Thanks to all of the people who waited patiently to get the subs every time! I'm so sorry I made you wait this long!
password for all files: hpkc2011
I time all the subs to the HQ versions (usually the 1280 x 720 x264 files) that are shared on ourhour.
VERY FIRST time timing and doing all the work on my own, so ofc there's gonna be mistakes. Anyone willing to help retime/type more properly/ correct any mistakes
bittersweet_bun for all the raws! Episode one: MF
Episode two: MF
notes on this epi: I'm not 100% (okay, I'm about 90%) sure that what I read on that letter at the end is exactly correct. I went by the general meaning, mostly. There's a damn kanji that I searched for exactly 2 and a half hours for its meaning, I haven't found it anywhere, and decided to give up and go with the flow of the rest of the sentence. So yeah, if anyone can correct me, feel free to do so~ I swear I spent more time on the letter in the end than the whole episode ><
Episode three: MF
I missed my translation many times because of my PC freezing this week >< Somelines might be crooked because of the timing, but I checked and they were fine... As fine it can seem to me at 5am. I'll be doing epi 4 shortly too~
Episode four: MF
I missed the translation for this one once too... And then my sister has been sitting at the PC I use for this program too, so I didn't have it all for myself XD And, I'm doing another drama too ;) But the important thing is that you guys have the subs for epi 4 now too!
Episode five: MF
No comments on this XD You'll see for your own~ Working on six now...
Episode six: MF
Episode seven: MF
Episode eight: MF
Episode nine: MF
Episode ten (final): MF
Please tell me if you find anything that is not good with the subs (timing, meaning, any corrections at all).
UPDATE 05 03 2012
I'm sorry for causing trouble to everyone who wanted to finish the drama on time!
The past few months have had many ups and downs, and sometimes it wasn't even in my hand to post the subs, even though I had actually finished by November 2011 :( You can blame my computer, a HDD failure, my dad and his forgetfulness, and also MF, for not working xD I finally have them on my computer now so here, you have them as well.
I shouldn't be joking OTL It's the first drama I subbed all on my own and I wanted it to be done properly and quickly, but I failed OTL
Thanks so much to
bittersweet_bun for uploading the raws the past summer!Thanks to all of the people who waited patiently to get the subs every time! I'm so sorry I made you wait this long!
password for all files: hpkc2011
I time all the subs to the HQ versions (usually the 1280 x 720 x264 files) that are shared on ourhour.
